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Tuesday, 26 February 2008

  • Hello everyone!! I have been VERY remiss in keeping you all up to date on whats been going on in my life. For that I apologize. One of the things that I last left you with was informing you that I was heading down to FL to see my Grandfather, not knowing if he was going to live or die. Me and my siblings flew down to FL on that Tuesday (18th of December) and met up with my parents. On Wednesday we went to see Grandpa in the hospital, he had a breathing tube in and was quite frustrated, it was hard to see him like that, because he had swelling in the brain the Thursday before (giving him a stroke and was the reason my Grandma took him in), he was confused and didn't really know what was going on. He kept trying to take the breathing tube out so that he could talk to us. They literally had to strap his arms to the bed to keep him from doing that . He was constantly asking to go home, even to the point where he would be inching his feet to the side of the bed very gradually so that at an opportune moment (in his mind) he'd be able to get up and go home. Little did he know that if he HAD gotten off the bed, he didn't have the strength to stand up.

    Wednesday night they took him off of the breathing tube and we visited again on Thursday. His eyes were bright, he was talking to us, he was speaking in complete sentences and his sentences made sense together. For all the signs it looked like he was going to get better. We did get to say our goodbyes to him and then headed out. My Grandma, parents, and both sets of aunts and uncles visited on Friday, in order to talk with doctors and nurses about Grandpa. The meeting took quite awhile and none of us grandchildren got to go and visit. My parents and Grandma stayed with Grandpa all day on Saturday and left about 4:00. My Aunt and 6 of the 7 grandkids went to visit Grandpa at 5:00pm, most of us stopped to get a drink in the lobby while Mike ran upstairs to see Grandpa, he was the last to see him alive.

    We got up to Grandpa's floor and into his ward just as Mike burst from Grandpa's room, "Nurse! Nurse! He's not breathing!!" They were quick to respond and rushed into his room to see what they could do for him. They were not able to do much because an NRO (Non Resuscitation Order) had been put on him by his living will and my Grandma's request. Grandpa passed away at 5:01 Saturday, December 22nd, 2007. I was standing outside his room when he was pronounced dead and Aunt Lori, Mike and myself were the first to enter the room after he was pronounced dead. His skin was yellowish, and he looked more like a wax figure, it seemed like it wasn't my Grandpa lying there. It had a resemblance of him, but it didn't embody HIM. He stood at 6'4" and was a large but friendly figure to all he met. He really embodied a man living for God, and had a higher purpose in life. He was here to bless others, and that was quite evident in the memories offered by friends at his memorial service.

    According to Mike, he felt that he had to be with Grandpa and so he ran up the stairs. Grandpa didn't even open his eyes or acknowledge that he was there, his breathing was labored and sounded like a runner gasping for breath at the end of a race. Mike talked to him for a little and then prayed aloud that God would ease Grandpa's breathing. As he finished his prayer, Grandpa's breathing DID slow and calm down, but then.....he just stopped.

    Grandpa's memorial service was held Wednesday, December 26th in FL with family, friends and fellow church members. His body was then flown up to his hometown and most of the family was able to get flights, or drive up there for the funeral on Saturday, December 29th. The Cason's have a burial plot up there, and Grandpa was placed in there. I was not able to attend that funeral because of previous commitments.

    R.I.P. Grandpa Cason
    December 22, 2007

Thursday, 27 December 2007

  • For one of my best friends

    This is for you, and you know who you are

    Being With You (Smokey Robison)

    I don't care what they think about me
    I don't care what they say
    I don't care what they think if you're leaving
    I'm gonna beg you to stay
    I don't care if they start to avoid me
    I don't care what they do
    I don't care about anything else
    But being with you being with you

    Honey don't go don't leave this scene
    Be out of the picture and off of the screen
    Don't let them say we told you so
    Don't tell me you love me and then let me go
    I heard the warning voice
    From friends and my relation
    They tell me all about your heart-break reputation

    I don't care what they think about me
    I don't care what they say
    I don't care what they think if you're leaving
    I'm gonna beg you to stay
    I don't care if they start to avoid me
    I don't care what they do
    I don't care about anything else
    But being with you being with you

    People can change they always do
    Haven't they noticed the changes in you
    Or can it be that like love I am blind
    Do I want it so much 'til it's all in my mind
    One thing I know for sure
    Is really really real
    I never felt before the way you make me feel

    I don't care what they think about me
    I don't care what they say
    I don't care what they think if you're leaving
    I'm gonna beg you to stay
    I don't care if they start to avoid me
    I don't care what they do
    I don't care about anything else
    But being with you being with you
    Being with you being with you

Monday, 17 December 2007

  • PLEASE PRAY

    Hey everyone,
    This past weekend has been a hard one for me. Please pray for me, my family and especially my Grandpa Cason. On Thursday of last week, my Grandma had Grandpa rushed to the hospital, she thought he was having a stroke. Turns out, he had a hemorrhage in the brain (bleeding in the brain). Saturday morning, about a half hour before my all day game day began (11am-11pm), I got a phone call. My grandpa had been put on life support early that morning and was not expected to live through the day. It was during this phone call that the first friend showed up for the game day. It was MAGGIE! She was SUCH a comfort to me and held me as I just cried on her shoulder. For some reason, no one else showed up till 1pm (God works in mysterious ways, doesn't He?), which gave me plenty of time to cry myself out, collect myself and talk about my memories of Grandpa. When the game day finally began, I was able to be a decent host and enjoy the day. A bit of a double personality that day, playing host, and taking phone calls and coordinating with people for plane trips and destinations.

    My parents started their driving trip to FL at 3pm. Around 5pm they got a phone call saying that he was taken off life support and was doing better (not well, but better than dying that very day). So my parents ended up spending the night at my house Saturday night on their way through.

    Today is Monday, and currently my Grandpa is still living (THANK GOD), and we are going to continue to go down to FL for Christmas and see him. We will be saying our goodbyes, and there is a real chance that this trip may end up having a funeral in it. I praise God that my Grandfather is a Christian, and that Christ was so dear to him throughout his life. I can say with assurance that I will see my Grandpa again in Heaven.

    Please pray for me and my family, and most importantly please pray for my grandfather.

Tuesday, 11 December 2007

  • IT IS OFFICIAL!!!!!

    It is now official! Maggie and I have been given permission to start our courtship and we can now OFFICIALLY say that we are boyfriend and girlfriend.

    It all really started back in late July. I held a gameday followed by a time of swing dancing, this was kind of an impromptu decision since originally we were going to travel an hour away for a dance that we would all have to pay for. Instead we went to a ballet studio for free. Extra people were invited and Saber was one of the extra people who came. I really didn't know her at this point, and randomly (as I have been known to do) I broke into a scottish accent. Saber picked up on it immediately and put my accent to shame with her PERFECT scottish accent. We began talking and I found out that she was going up to the Pennsylvania Renaissance Festival (PARF) and she asked if I was interested in going with them, I IMMEDIATELY said yes. After about a week of talking with Saber, she had to leave for Texas and she put me in touch with her best friend, Maggie. Since that point, the three of us developed our friendship into a deep bond, the three of us thinking nearly the same way. I found myself eventually REALLY being drawn to Maggie in a way that was looking for something deeper than friendship, and Sept 24th (around 11pm) I asked Maggie if I could ask her parents for permission to begin a courtship. She said yes. This is when both Maggie and I say our 'dating' began, at least this is the point where we became a couple.

    I then got in contact with her father and figured out a time that would work for both of us to meet and talk. We first met October 13th and discussed many different topics. The result of that first meeting was "wait", which turned out to be the best answer he could have given. I tend to have a rebel streak in me, and if he had said 'no' I would have been tempted to just continue the relationship anyway (not a good idea), if he had said yes, then honestly we wouldn't be as close as we currently are, we would have been traveling a slightly different path and wouldn't have been forced to talk as much as we did.

    Fast forward a bit to November (15th I believe) and Maggie's father and I scheduled another meeting, and this time things went even better, but the final decision was still "wait a little longer, not much longer though". This was hard but yet hopeful. We had a little more direction and assurances that this was still in the works, still being thought about and heavily considered.

    And then it happened. A meeting was scheduled (a bit of prompting from my end) between both of Maggie's parents, Maggie and myself. And this occurred Saturday morning 8AM at Denny's. We met there, exchanged the obligatory pleasantries and then got down to talking. Right off the bat, Maggie's father said, "Lets start at the end, we are going to permit you to begin a courtship with Maggie. Now we will focus on expectations....." AMAZING start to the conversation, and then they proceeded to give their point of view, and in the process answered all our questions in the BEST way possible. WE set our own curfew, WE choose where we can and can't go, WE choose our own boundaries, and they will give their opinions, but don't expect that we bend to their every whim. They want this relationship to be an adult relationship, with adult privileges and responsibilities. (At this point I'm trying VERY hard not to have my jaw hit the table). After much more talking and questions and answers we get to the "near future scheduling".  I almost had to pick my jaw back off the table yet again when they tell me that they will allow Maggie to come with me to a friend's wedding up at Geneva! This is an overnight thing, and I was FLOORED when they said yes. This is SUCH an answer to MANY prayers, and better than anything I had imagined, except in my "ideal perfection" scenario.

    Thank you for all your prayers and words of comfort and advice, I pray that God will continue to bless. And now on to the next phase of our relationship, may it be even better.

Wednesday, 05 December 2007

  • The saga continues

    Well, it seems like all that I've been writing lately has been that I'm still waiting for an answer. Well.....it shall continue for now. I have another meeting this Saturday and I'm hopeful for good things to come of it. This meeting is unique in that instead of it just being Maggie's father and myself, this meeting is one between BOTH of Maggie's parents, Maggie and myself all together. I have a good feeling about this, but then again I am an optimist and I'm hoping that even if we do not get the go ahead to begin the courtship, we can get permission for me to at least take her out on dates. Prayers are appreciated, and I'll try and post early next week the results.

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